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Do you have any obsessions whether healthy or unhealthy? If so, you’re not alone. I recently had baby number two, and what’s one of the first things I did after arriving home from the hospital? I got on my scale. Why? Because I’m clearly obsessed with my weight. If you’ve been following me or if you know me, then you know I’ve struggled with being severely overweight nearly my entire life and had lapband two years ago. I recognize that the scale is only one way that people measure progress, but for some of us, we’ve let that number define who we are, how our day will go, how we will treat ourselves and even how others should treat us.

I have been so unappreciative of my body and the things it has done by focusing on that number. I’m not as obsessive with it as I used to be, but I know I’m not far from being there if I don’t stay on top of it.

A couple of months ago I was looking around on Instagram, and I came across an influencer who had recently had a baby and was now a mother of two under two. That was so scary to me because taking care of one baby at a time is already a big responsibility. She was wearing a shirt from this company and had a post about canceling SnapBack culture. This really resonated with me as I sat here scale obsessed and struggling with my changed and healing body wondering what my new normal would be. Why are we so obsessed with getting back to our pre-baby weight within a couple of months when it took many months to gain the weight?

I am making a commitment to myself to not be scale obsessed, to be kinder to myself, to respect and appreciate my body for all it has been through and all it can do. The body is an amazing thing, and mine has shown me how amazing it is countless times. After I had my last baby via cesarean, my biggest fear was not surviving the birth. Well, I survived. As I sit here working through body image issues, mental junk, and losing so much hair post partum, it just lets me know that there’s more work for me to do because now my hair is my newest obsession.

Because I never post a side view out of fear.

Let me know your thoughts about obsessing over the scale or anything else. Have you been able to sever your relationship with the scale? If so, what are some things that worked for you?

Until next time, take care and be kind to yourself.

It’s Me

So, a little over a year ago I made a post with a picture of my oldest sister and me. The caption said it was a sneak peak and a post would be coming soon. Well, that post never happened until today. It was regarding our annual photo shoot that we are clearly dropping the ball on this year. That’s disappointing, but life has happened quickly this year, and there was no planning. Anywho…

Once again, it was time for our annual photo shoot. This was our third year. It was decided that instead of doing a boudoir shoot that we would just do a glam/beauty shoot. We didn’t do all of the preparation that we did the first two years. I think we both didn’t have very high hopes and weren’t necessarily looking forward to this shoot. We had goals that we didn’t meet, which was a little disappointing. We did remember that the ultimate goal was a feel good photo shoot.

We had a different makeup artist this time, Kawambee D. She actually came to the photography studio to apply our makeup. We had fun, and since it was a beauty shoot, we ended up with some bling on our faces. Our photographer had some new hair for us, and it was gorgeous. The music and the vibe were just right as usual, and magic was made. Let’s get into this by looking at a few pics from our shoot. Enjoy!