Obsessions

Do you have any obsessions whether healthy or unhealthy? If so, you’re not alone. I recently had baby number two, and what’s one of the first things I did after arriving home from the hospital? I got on my scale. Why? Because I’m clearly obsessed with my weight. If you’ve been following me or if you know me, then you know I’ve struggled with being severely overweight nearly my entire life and had lapband two years ago. I recognize that the scale is only one way that people measure progress, but for some of us, we’ve let that number define who we are, how our day will go, how we will treat ourselves and even how others should treat us.

I have been so unappreciative of my body and the things it has done by focusing on that number. I’m not as obsessive with it as I used to be, but I know I’m not far from being there if I don’t stay on top of it.

Because we need to

A couple of months ago I was looking around on Instagram, and I came across an influencer who had recently had a baby and was now a mother of two under two. That was so scary to me because taking care of one baby at a time is already a big responsibility. She was wearing a shirt from this company and had a post about canceling SnapBack culture. This really resonated with me as I sat here scale obsessed and struggling with my changed and healing body wondering what my new normal would be. Why are we so obsessed with getting back to our pre-baby weight within a couple of months when it took many months to gain the weight?

I am making a commitment to myself to not be scale obsessed, to be kinder to myself, to respect and appreciate my body for all it has been through and all it can do. The body is an amazing thing, and mine has shown me how amazing it is countless times. After I had my last baby via cesarean, my biggest fear was not surviving the birth. Well, I survived. As I sit here working through body image issues, mental junk, and losing so much hair post partum, it just lets me know that there’s more work for me to do because now my hair is my newest obsession.

As a matter of fact, I made two.
Because we are
Because I never post a side view out of fear.

Let me know your thoughts about obsessing over the scale or anything else. Have you been able to sever your relationship with the scale? If so, what are some things that worked for you?

Until next time, take care and be kind to yourself.

It’s Me

6 thoughts

  1. I’m am applauding and cheering so hard right now! I am also weight obsessed and it’s so liberating to hear your thoughts and feelings on the topic. Love the courage it takes to post your inner fears with the world.

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    • Thank you for your comment. I completely understand. I actually have at least two scales at home. One is WiFi enabled and connected to an app. I wanted to weigh at least once per day so I wouldn’t lose my streak. I literally got nothing for a streak and no repercussions for breaking the streak. I have another one that is t WiFi enabled and would weigh on that one multiple times per day. How exhausting!

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  2. I watch my weight… go up!
    Why,oh, why do we women obsess over our weight? We are so unhappy with our bodies. Bring back the days when people appreciate a full-figured woman! Will there ever come a day when we will be drooled over for our love handles? For once, I wanna enjoy an ice cream sundae and molten lava cake without the guilt! 😅

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    • I guess there are so many in the world that treat us as though we’re somehow less than when our weight is higher. If we don’t have self love, it can be difficult to not listen to all of the noise surrounding us. We should definitely be able to enjoy those desserts without the guilt. I like desserts, but I really love a nice home cooked meal. My favorite right now is smothered chicken and gravy over white rice. Yum. Thanks for reading and commenting, and go ahead and enjoy the dessert with no guilt.

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