Well for the first time since I got back from H3 I had started gaining weight. Since I got back home, I had gone down another 6 pounds which may not seem like much, but I had been consistent with it. Well, the past few weeks I became a little discouraged. I think that I was so excited to write a testimonial for them and was expecting to see it. It’s been almost 2 months and I still haven’t seen it anywhere. The person who said she was going to contact me never did, and I felt a little bad about the work I put in writing it. I fell really hard back into a lot of old habits. I started feeling like I couldn’t come out of it. I gained about 10 pounds. I began feeling hopeless. On Saturday evening I was visiting with my oldest sister and niece, and while over there, I just lost it and started crying. I cried because it sucks that I have to put in so much work. I cried because I have so far to go, and I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I cried because no matter what, there is no one else who can do this for me; it’s something that I have to do for myself. I know that it’s not just me and other people have the same struggle, but in that moment it was just about me and my struggle. I felt so overwhelmed. I took out some of my literature from H3 and I began making notes. I felt a little bit better.
I have decided to pick myself up and to make some small changes along the way. I know it is not going to be easy, but I really want to be successful. I have joined in on the 30 day Green Smoothie challenge. I have been in a BL weight loss challenge on Sparkpeople. This week I posted a small loss instead of the gains I had posted for the past 2 weeks. I have also joined in on an abs challenge on sparkpeople. I look forward to success in all of my challenges.
If there is anyone else out there reading this, just know that it can be done. There is nothing easy about it, but I believe in the end I will feel so accomplished. I have to celebrate the victories all along the way. Keep up the fight.
Until next time,